Tuesday, September 30, 2014

the roses of chanel no. 5


i read this beautiful article in lonny magazine and keep going back to it so i thought i'd share it here. 


joseph mul's farm has been in his family for five generations. the farm located in the south of france, 4 miles from grasse  near the côte d'azur. this beautiful farm is where the may roses (rosa centifolia) that go into every bottle of chanel no. 5 are grown. each may, for approximately three weeks, the farm harvests approximately thirty-five to forty tons of may roses. each rose is processed within an hour and twenty minutes of being picked. isn't that incredible?



each bottle of perfum has twelve may roses and one thousand jasmine flowers. legend has it the the perfume's name comes from the fifth of six batches originally created for chanel. five was also her favorite number. if you head over to the original article on lonny there's a beautiful video about the making of the perfume. according to the article a bottle of chanel no. 5 sells every thirty seconds. 

i'd love to visit this farm one day... and maybe leave with pockets full of roses.

original article for lonny magazine by irene edwards
photography by genevieve garruppo

Saturday, September 27, 2014

a girl's gotta eat / thai quinoa bowl



if i had to choose one recipe to make for the rest of my life it would be this recipe from how sweet eats. it's that good. 

i came across it on pinterest (where else?) and it had so many of my favorite ingredients: cilantro, lime, coconut milk, and ginger. and quinoa since i'm always looking for quinoa recipes that have a lot of flavor. also, i leave out the chicken because i'm trying (emphasis on trying) to eleminate aminal products from my diet. but also buying and cooking meat stresses me out. so instead i just double the veggies and add extra peanuts. it's delicious. 

also i learned an amazing secret for light, fluffy, non-mushy quinoa: when you add water to your pot of quinoa add boiling water. it makes all the difference - no more quinoa mush. you'll see.

now i'm hungry.

Thursday, September 25, 2014

my personal theme



i was just reading stephanie's posts on their family themes and this quote came to mind.

there's no going back. no matter how hard i pray and cry and wish.

all that's left is to move forward.

and i'm trying. sometimes it's fearfully, ungratefully, haltingly, stubbornly, slowly, and painfully but "even those who limp go not backwards." (gibran)

getting a little off topic, but not really... have you read the great divorce by cs lewis? it's one of my favorite books. in the book the inhabitants of hell get to visit heaven and, if they choose, can stay there. there's nothing in the world stopping them. but most of them don't. they choose to go back to hell. the ghosts talk of their lives and sorrows and injustices and at one point in the book the author is told "heaven, once attained, will work backwards and turn even that agony into a glory."

i think that's true. it's a tall order but i truly believe it's possible. whatever the details, the whole can still be beautiful.

do you have family or personal mottos?


i don't know the source
for this image... help?

Wednesday, September 24, 2014

take care



self care.


i don't know why in my mind self care has a negative connotation. maybe because i associate it with other self words like self pity, self-centered and selfish.

when i went into the rape crisis center the woman there cheerfully chirped, "take care of yourself. have a bubble bath... get a pedicure!" and i wanted to hit her. hard. in the face. with a chair. (to be fair i'm sure she said more than that but i don't remember.) i was scared and angry and my brain latched on to what seemed the most ludicrous statement and i vowed to never get a pedicure or take a bubble bath again. after the miscarriage i was told basically the same thing. "just relax. try taking a bubble bath."  by that point my head was in such an awful, messed up place that the last thing i wanted was anything to do with myself. i wanted away from my self, out of my body, far away from this life.

the other day when i was at a very low point i shared some of the feelings i had about myself... and they weren't the great. it was pointed out that if i said the things i say to myself to another person i'd be a bully and a kind of a jerk. ugh.

i feel like i see and hear the term self care all over the place lately. i'm working on finding the balance between self pity and self care.

"Self care refers to actions and attitudes which contribute to the maintenance of well-being and personal health and promote human development."

i guess what i'm finally realizing is that i am still here. that life is stubborn. it goes on. it's going to go on. it goes on whether i'm curled up on my bed hiding out or trying to put the pieces of my life back together and keeping enjoying life. if it's going on go on it may as well be enjoyable. it's worth trying, right?

things to start:

buy myself fresh flowers
prepare little meals, even if it's just for me
wear a bright lipstick
keep my desk tidy so it's a place i want to be
download some new music turn it up
be diligent with my personal prayer and scripture study
spend time with friends
use exercise to work out some of the nervous tension
get my eyebrows done every once and awhile
stop using the word fine - good or bad, be authentic
start a photo challenge: nature/self portrait/ whatever
go to the temple
take deep breaths

things to change:

take my prescriptions without calling myself weak
cry when i need to without calling myself a baby
say no when i'm overwhelmed without calling myself selfish
reach out when i need to without calling myself pathetic
search for a new job without calling myself a loser
spend time with people i love without questioning my worth
forgive myself when i slip without beating myself up


"Therefore, though ours is a time of conflict, quietly caring for the 'life of the soul' is still what matters most." Neal A Maxwell

what are some ways you care for yourself? how do you fight back against your own inner bully?

beautiful image by olga bennett

Tuesday, September 23, 2014

anthro playlist


a little playlist from the archives. my old blog is lost somewhere in cyberspace. maybe that's okay. but since sometimes tuesdays are just as blech as mondays here's one of my favorite playlists.

it's a summery playlist. i'm hanging onto summer as long as possible.


you know - jj

kingdom of the animals - iron & wine

miracle - baaba maal

folding chair - regina spektor

pullo årdo - youssou n'dour

Curious - the innocence mission


kathy's song - simon & garfunkel

cellulose sunshine - stereolab

fire - sonya kitchell

energy - the apples in stereo

heart and home - the go-betweens

your big hands - jolie holland

alphabet soup - laika



i purchased all of the songs i share so if you like the artist i encourage you to do the same. happy tuesday!

Monday, September 22, 2014

run away with me / viana do castelo


when i came across these photos of viana do castelo, a city in the northern part of portugal, my heart skipped a beat. everything about it seemed to ooze charm.

this city reminds me a little bit of santa barbara with the mountains on one side and the sea on the other. after researching a bit more viana do castelo is definitely on my travel list. i'll be dreaming of portugal when it starts snowing here.

what cities or countries are you dying to visit?

you can see more of this beautiful city over on a place for twiggs. all photos belong to claudia casal.

how to eat toast


being single (and let's be honest, a little lazy) i'm always looking for easy, tasty recipes. when i came across how to eat toast for dinner i couldn't resist. the first year i lived in wales and later london i didn't know how to cook a thing and was too nervous to try what i affectionately called the "fish head stew" that my host family loved. so for almost an entire year i rotated butter, beans, cheese, jam, and marmite on toast. 

while these toasty meals are much more appealing cheese toast will always be a favorite. 



image from food52.com